I am at a crossroad. The arrows marked on the four directions are out of dollar signs. They say money isn't important. It is now. You'd be a fool to beg to differ. You'd be lying and you know it's through your teeth.
I loved my old job but had to quit because of the crazy working hours. I spent 3 months unemployed, then regularly gigged at 4 resorts, 4 nights a week for 5 months straight. Another 3 and a half months go by and I start working at radio where I go for an hour every weeknight, and now, since July, I still go there three days a week for an hour. Been two years at the radio, still counting. By last October, I had had enough of free time and started working full time. I earn enough to save and spend crazily. Ok not that crazily but still... I'm 21.
I am now sick of this daily routine. Sick maybe because my day job isn't so exciting as before. I have decided to wait until next Jan/Feb (but can I suck it in and stay put?) to see if things pick up. If things do pick up, would I still consider sitting at this desk 45 hrs a week? As opposed to say, 12 - 15 hrs a week and a better pay? Radio...? No comments.
The crossroad isn't all about money though. Hold up for a minute - but money is integrated everywhere.. so even if it has life choices, they again depend on money. Money drives me crazy. Which is why I always wish I was born in another era, when money was not present and making everyone's ass itch. That would be in cavemen times I guess. I will be a cavewoman. GAAHHGAHHHHGAHHH)@(#*$&@#$HHHHH!
The real annoying clitch (the word I should be using here is catch perhaps, clitch is not a proper word, but who cares) in the choices are that before I had too much free time and it drove me mad, so I got the day job. Now that I don't have enough time for music and whatever other impulses, I crave for it. But knowing and continuously analyzing myself makes me wonder if I quit my job, would I crave for it in a couple of months again? I guess the real annoying clitch is that we never know what is going to happen.
1 comments:
Analyzing a situation is good, but on the other hand, over analyzing leads to unnecessary thoughts, which makes decision making much harder.
My advice is to create a balance. Even though money is a factor, since you say you make more than enough, perhaps it is time you tried to make more time for what you really want to do, ie; your music. Time can always be found if you really want to.
I myself, have a very busy regular day job. And I like to keep it that way, meaning I limit my work to certain time boundaries which I set for myself. One more thing, never take your work worries to bed.
I have a lot to say on this issue, but I suppose these are more than enough to share for the moment.
Cheers for the thought provoking post.
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