...or rather, I'l never GET to celebrate New Year. so far, my New Years have gone like this:
2004: too small, just finished O'levels. at home... or where WAS I? yeah... prolly at home. where else would I be?
2005: was supposed to go with Bing to Sarawak but my mom made me come home for holidays. bought a ticket to the disco at kuda bandos (yayy my first ever New Year celebration!!) and waited patiently in line for more than an hour... by the time it was 11.30 PM I decided I didnt wana be on a boat when the countdown hit, so I refunded me and my friends' tickets, and went to this lame ass party and danced for like 15 mins, went on a car ride crammed with 8 or 9 of us and came home around 1 AM.
2006: was deported to Haa Alif. my parents left to India, I was ecstatic, made plans for a massive party at home but left my sis in charge, who is to be blamed for this hurtful act. how bored was I? erm... i don't know how to tell you...
2007: resort music, didnt even get paid well. bummer
2008: resort music, didnt get paid well and more over, was sent back to male' around 1.30 AM, after we finished the gig that is. they were like, the ferry's ready so you guys can pack up and leave whenever you're ready. damn... that was THE WORST experience ever! and all of my friends were going nuts on a desert island with the stereo blastin away with every awesome dance song imaginable! i know cos i heard it when i called em to share the bad news.
2009: yet again... resort music. and i feel sad cos all of my girlfriends are leavin to lanka on 30th. *BIG FAT SIGH*... ugh...
2010: I am definitely going somewhere, and not to a resort with a band. this is gonna be my new year resolution: to FRIGGIN CELEBRATE THE NEXT NEW YEAR hard enuf to.. to.. i shud get better at this. i shud.. considerin how much my friends pick on me. anyway, you get the idea. i'm off to moop and mope and sulk. well, to watch Scrubs which i find incredibly hilarious.
Monday, December 28, 2009
Saturday, December 26, 2009
My Capricorn
Just A Dream
I can't tie a string to the moon or the stars,
And bring them down for you
To cover you in moonshine,
or bathe with you in the glow of those are...
Just a dream that is too far away,
A dream that I’m trying to reach.
I could be your deity or your mermaid, or your princess,
or I could even be your damsel in distress
Sadly there are no more pearls for me on the ocean's dance floor,
I've granted my wishes for which I now lament.
A bit of fairy dust, a sigh of wind that might just
Blow us away into another realm
To sing and dance to count the drops,
To love and lust and hear my heart almost stop
To getting down on my knees
To breathe and live and finally be so free
Whenever you smile
Whenever you laugh
Whenever you are near
To love you with every millionth of my heart, I'd gladly do
To be in love with you with every inch open wide, I would
I could
This year in short, has been quite eventful. This year brought me back to the person I was almost 6 years ago, but better, like a newer model of some gadget. 6 years is way too long to have been groping for an answer, to have been stripped down bare of all my energy and used like a battery to fuel everyone else. To have been mocked and ridiculed – yes I know you were pointing fingers at me and I saw the sneering – I’m not blind you see. But I remained your friend didn’t I?
This year really has been one of the best in my life so far. The best actually… I am grateful for my Capricorn who cured me and healed me and put a band-aid on my wound. You are the only one who saw the inflictions and vowed to put an end to it, and you did. Everything is so complete, unadulterated and pure, and finally my mind is at peace.
This isn’t just a dream for me anymore, I’m not hopelessly trying to reach with outstretched arms anymore… Thank you for making it a reality for me. And not another hope burnt to ashes.
I can't tie a string to the moon or the stars,
And bring them down for you
To cover you in moonshine,
or bathe with you in the glow of those are...
Just a dream that is too far away,
A dream that I’m trying to reach.
I could be your deity or your mermaid, or your princess,
or I could even be your damsel in distress
Sadly there are no more pearls for me on the ocean's dance floor,
I've granted my wishes for which I now lament.
A bit of fairy dust, a sigh of wind that might just
Blow us away into another realm
To sing and dance to count the drops,
To love and lust and hear my heart almost stop
To getting down on my knees
To breathe and live and finally be so free
Whenever you smile
Whenever you laugh
Whenever you are near
To love you with every millionth of my heart, I'd gladly do
To be in love with you with every inch open wide, I would
I could
This year in short, has been quite eventful. This year brought me back to the person I was almost 6 years ago, but better, like a newer model of some gadget. 6 years is way too long to have been groping for an answer, to have been stripped down bare of all my energy and used like a battery to fuel everyone else. To have been mocked and ridiculed – yes I know you were pointing fingers at me and I saw the sneering – I’m not blind you see. But I remained your friend didn’t I?
This year really has been one of the best in my life so far. The best actually… I am grateful for my Capricorn who cured me and healed me and put a band-aid on my wound. You are the only one who saw the inflictions and vowed to put an end to it, and you did. Everything is so complete, unadulterated and pure, and finally my mind is at peace.
This isn’t just a dream for me anymore, I’m not hopelessly trying to reach with outstretched arms anymore… Thank you for making it a reality for me. And not another hope burnt to ashes.
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